A Lovenote

I am still so unrefined
The heart is there but the mastery takes time

Right now, it’s just a celebration
A home coming
After years of sitting in my muck
Finding tenderness and love for the dirtiest parts of me
Softening
Not expecting or needing anything to change
Just wild acceptance
For this moment
As it is

Wild acceptance
For my closure
For my gritted teeth
For my numbness
For my humanness

Ultimately, love, I desire to alchemize my selfishness into service

Devoted
In service of spirit rising
In service of communion
In service of oneness
In service of love

Oh, the wisdom
Of my mother
Reminding me all throughout my youth that we are pretty on the inside FIRST
That the sparkle of a being, a character, a constitution is built deep deep inside us

And now I’m on that journey consciously
Wondering…
How can you soften your presence so others feel invited and safe
How can you be so revealing with another that you’re reflecting the hearts wisdom truth of that moment
Not painting it in your opinion
Your wounding
Your trauma
Your patterns
Your fears

You are free, unattached
You are a true oracle
You know what’s yours and it doesn’t get in the way
You’re a mirror for their spirit to recognize itself in you
Employing your artful expression
Evoking compassion and unconditional love for the hard edges
Holding space for us to soften
Into ourselves
Into this moment
Into bliss
Into the truth of what is…

We are endless
We are not only this moment but all moments
We are not only these bodies but all bodies
We are one
With all things in existence
We always have been
We always will be
And I love you

So, beloved, I take the time
To practice
To soften
To open myself
To feel safe in my body
To feel safe in my emotions

I take the time
To refine my art of loving
My flavor
My sacred dance

I take the time
To define my boundaries
To source myself in the innate love that I am
To create a relationship between me and myself
Secure
Trusting
Open

I’m preparing a space in my heart
For you

So that when you feel me, you will feel a safe, soft opening
A trustable, sturdy home for your heart
In mine
As one
In service
To each other
To the world
To love

I’ll be ready,
A